Everything is Everything.
Everything happens for a reason. That used to be my motto in life. I was adamant about that belief. Everything in life, whatever the occurrence, happened for a reason. Things may happen by chance, but I believed the moments existed for an ultimate purpose. I centered my beliefs by that single phrase. But, those words to live by changed in an instant the moment I experienced a tragic loss. My motto about everything happening for a reason no longer made sense. How could a life lost actually happen for a reason? I dropped my belief and was numb from feeling anything I did not understand life.
People kept saying everything would be okay and that time would heal the pain. None of it made sense and I didn’t want to hear any of it. I pushed everyone away, yet that motto of mine kept haunting me. I heard it from everyone and everywhere. As time elapsed, the feeling in my entire being began to return and aspects of my life began to fall into place. Everything was happening for a reason, yet I fought each moment and dismissed every reason that actually made sense. A part of me felt guilty for feeling a sense of resolution within. My tragic loss didn’t make sense, but my occurrences thereafter lined up.
I went through an internal struggle to accept what life had given to me. It was only until I allowed myself to believe again was I able to find a true resolution inside. Life may not always happen as planned and every moment may not always bring joy, but lesson learned - that is just life and everything that happens in the span of your existence, has happened for a reason.